My fiancé suffers from pregnancy sympathy pains; he gets cravings, mood swings, back aches, and now even sore tired feet. In fact, I feel he is affected by the pregnancy more than I am most days. Everyone mostly just jokes about it, even me.
Since I've been pregnant, people have been nicer to me than they have ever been before--even strangers on the street. It's weird. I've never been showered with so many gifts and compliments and well wishes. As for my fiancé, he mostly hears one thing in particular; be nice to her and take care of her.
Generally speaking, he and I have really enjoyed the pregnancy together. We haven't been together very long and I just moved in with him, so we've been using this time to get to know each other better and solidify our relationship. It's been a difficult process since he works long hours, which means I'm typically home alone, but we've made it work.
Of course in every relationship there are arguments and, up until recently, I felt like ours were the absolute worse (hormones sure don't help). When we would argue I just couldn't understand why he just wouldn't let me "win" and let it be. After all, I'm the one who is pregnant, I'm the one who is stressed, I'm the one whose life has changed so dramatically in such a short period of time. I felt like everyone knew he should just be nice except for him. All I could think about was me and how everything was affecting me.
From an outsiders perspective, it didn't seem like my fiancé's life had changed so much. He was still working. He was still going out. He was still doing mostly everything he had done before I was pregnant.
Nothing was the same for me. I had just graduated from college so I was still looming for work and trying to adjust to post-college life. I had no financial stability of my own. I moved in with him to a place that was, not only foreign, but difficult for me to navigate. I couldn't get around without assistance because I didn't know how to drive. I was living "on my own" for the first time ever. And on top of all of that I was preparing to be a mother.
I just couldn't understand why he was more sympathetic to my situation. Why couldn't he see how hard this all was for me?
Then during one particularly bad argument he reached his breaking point. I won't get into the details of it for the sake of his privacy, but he revealed to me a lot of things he had been keeping to himself. I realized I had been so self absorbed I was actually the one who could not see the stress HE was under.
He knew my life had changed very abruptly and he was trying to do all that he could to make sure that I was happy with my new life. But he felt no matter how hard he worked it wasn't enough to make things better for me. This had made him feel guilty, as if he had put me in a situation I resented. Yes, he looked long hours but that was because he never had to take care of or provide for anyone but himself, and he wanted to be sure that he could take care of us all. Yes, he went out, but why? He wasn't sure. The fear of nor being able to anymore, maybe. Or the temporary escape from impending parenthood...inescapable responsibility...the leap until full adulthood. Yes, I moved in with him, but he just moved into this area himself so he had to adjust to the change as well.
He was excited about having the baby but had all the same fears and concerns and anxieties I had. Up until then he had put on a demeanor of "I got this, no problem," but no matter how many babies he had been around growing up, this was different. This was HIS baby, OUR baby, our FIRST child. Seeing me struggle and not knowing what to do, knowing what was coming--yet not really knowing anything at all, it was all straining him.
Yet he felt that he had to keep it in. Pregnancy, after all, is not about Daddy. It's about Mommy and everything Mommy wants.
Well didn't all that just make me feel like shit.
Since that argument we really haven't had any. I think it's because after that I realized that whatever I was going through, he was going through too, to some extent. Just like his sympathy pains. This has made me more empathetic and listen more for the important things he doesn't say. I feel it's really strengthened our relationship.
This whole experience has just made me feel like Dads are really under appreciated. Mom deserves lots of love, and comfort, and attention--of course! But I don't think Dad should be neglected--especially if he is THERE which, sadly, isn't always the case.
So this is for Terrance, my wonderful fiancé and amazing Daddy-to-be. I love you and I appreciate everything you have done and do for our family (even if I'm not the best at showing it!). I am very lucky to have such a caring and dedicated partner. And our baby is so lucky to have such a passionate father figure in his life. I'm sorry if you ever feel like what you do isn't enough, or isn't noticed, or isn't right. That's not true. The proof is in the end result; when we see our baby grow up and become a good man, just like you, you'll know--even if no one says it--you did a job well done.
But until then I'm going to do my best to let you know how loved and appreciated you truly are. <3
Good people are hard to find. So when you find them, remember that they deserve to know how special they are.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Dear Julian
I have a new project idea.
I want to take a whole bunch of words of wisdom for my baby and do a series of hand drawn typography. I've already got the first image down, I just need to clean up the sketch and make it into presentable, printable artwork.
I was thinking, if I can make enough of these images I would like to make them into an artbook for him. Then I thought, "well what if other people like them too?" So, I've decided if I make enough I will put together an artbook and sell it on Lulu to whoever is interested in buying. :)
I'll probably make prints available too.
I've decided to call this project "Dear Julian" since it's for him. I'm actually pretty excited about it. I have some words I'd like to share with him, but I'm having a hard time thinking of ways to present them visually--so it may take awhile before this project is actually completed.
Haha, maybe by the time it's done he'll be able to read the book himself. :P
I want to take a whole bunch of words of wisdom for my baby and do a series of hand drawn typography. I've already got the first image down, I just need to clean up the sketch and make it into presentable, printable artwork.
I was thinking, if I can make enough of these images I would like to make them into an artbook for him. Then I thought, "well what if other people like them too?" So, I've decided if I make enough I will put together an artbook and sell it on Lulu to whoever is interested in buying. :)
I'll probably make prints available too.
I've decided to call this project "Dear Julian" since it's for him. I'm actually pretty excited about it. I have some words I'd like to share with him, but I'm having a hard time thinking of ways to present them visually--so it may take awhile before this project is actually completed.
Haha, maybe by the time it's done he'll be able to read the book himself. :P
Saturday, August 20, 2011
!!!UPDATES!!! Shop and New Space for the BHC
So if you checked out the "Shop" page recently you may have noticed that it's been separated into two categories; "Kawaii Stray!" and "$1 Art." Kawaii Stray! commissions are still closed but I've decided to open up some cheap digital art commissions for awhile. I'll only be doing this for a limited time, so if you want some get it now. In another month I won't have the time or patience to do anything. D:
In other news The Broken Hearts Club has moved to it's own blog. Things were getting a bit crowded here so I thought it should be best that BHC had room to breath. Now that it has its own space you may soon see more updates on it. All BHC posts of the past will still remain here so you can still check them out, although they have also been copied over to the new blog.
For our next update...followtestray.com e-mails, perhaps? Watch the contact page and see.
In other news The Broken Hearts Club has moved to it's own blog. Things were getting a bit crowded here so I thought it should be best that BHC had room to breath. Now that it has its own space you may soon see more updates on it. All BHC posts of the past will still remain here so you can still check them out, although they have also been copied over to the new blog.
For our next update...followtestray.com e-mails, perhaps? Watch the contact page and see.
Friday, August 19, 2011
No, you weren't HACKED.
SMART Computer Class Blog: Software & Antivirus
We've all fallen for it. The link on Facebook from our friend saying "OMG this is SO FUNNY you have to click on this" and out of curiosity and trust we do and....nothing happens. Or at least it SEEMS that way. Next thing you know all of your friends are asking you what was that thing you tried to send them? Or asking you about messages that you don't remember ever sending.
No. Your screen name was not hacked. That seemingly innocent link that you clicked on was actually a computer worm which invaded your computer, multiplied, and spread itself all throughout your contacts with hopes that someone else will be naive enough to open it.
The good news, these things are *generally* harmless. Some are programmed to be more dangerous than others, but for the most part their purpose is to be an annoyance. Changing your password will help stop it, but to get rid of it completely you'll need to run your antivirus software and remove the evil little thing.
I admit my knowledge of these things is very limited but I do think it's helpful information. The best way to stop these things is to avoid them from the start.
Be suspicious of all links and random activity! When in doubt, ask the person who sent you something what it's about before proceeding to click or download anything. This applies to Facebook, MySpace, your e-mail, and just about anywhere else on the internet.
The above link is to a lesson I did on antivirus protection and malware. If list the different types of malware you could be affected by, how to stop and prevent them from hurting your computer, and provide links to other resources if you want more information.
If you don't consider yourself very computer literate you should check it out so you can keep you and your computer safe and happy. <3
We've all fallen for it. The link on Facebook from our friend saying "OMG this is SO FUNNY you have to click on this" and out of curiosity and trust we do and....nothing happens. Or at least it SEEMS that way. Next thing you know all of your friends are asking you what was that thing you tried to send them? Or asking you about messages that you don't remember ever sending.
No. Your screen name was not hacked. That seemingly innocent link that you clicked on was actually a computer worm which invaded your computer, multiplied, and spread itself all throughout your contacts with hopes that someone else will be naive enough to open it.
The good news, these things are *generally* harmless. Some are programmed to be more dangerous than others, but for the most part their purpose is to be an annoyance. Changing your password will help stop it, but to get rid of it completely you'll need to run your antivirus software and remove the evil little thing.
I admit my knowledge of these things is very limited but I do think it's helpful information. The best way to stop these things is to avoid them from the start.
Be suspicious of all links and random activity! When in doubt, ask the person who sent you something what it's about before proceeding to click or download anything. This applies to Facebook, MySpace, your e-mail, and just about anywhere else on the internet.
The above link is to a lesson I did on antivirus protection and malware. If list the different types of malware you could be affected by, how to stop and prevent them from hurting your computer, and provide links to other resources if you want more information.
If you don't consider yourself very computer literate you should check it out so you can keep you and your computer safe and happy. <3
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Can you tell I love my dog?
I think when I do original nail designs I'll give a little rundown of what I did so here it is.
Biscuit Nail
1. Clear base coat with nail hardeners.
2. Sheer orange coat (I don't have a polish close to her color so the sheer orange was the best I could do).
3. Paint tip white and slightly rounded for muzzle.
4. White nail art polish (the skinny one with the thin brush) to add stripe, muzzle design, and eyebrows.
5. Black nail art polish to add dark area around nose, whisker marks, and eyes (leaving space for pink nose at tip).
6. Pink nail art polish to add cute pink nose. <3
Bones
1. Dab some white nail polish on paper.
2. Take a bended bobby pin and dip in nail polish.
3. Make four dots on nail; two next to each other, and another two parallel to those.
4. Draw white line between them with polish.
Paws
1. Dab some black polish on paper.
2. Take bended bobby pin and dip in nail polish.
3. Make one big dot for pad of foot.
4. Make four little dots around for toes.
When it's ALL dry seal with clear nail polish :)
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Friday, August 12, 2011
I need to do my nails...
Recently I've become obsessed with doing my nails, lol...which is funny since I never cared about that before. I probably didn't care because until this year I was an infamous nail biter D:<. Also, when you're working with clay and other hands-on materials it's kind of pointless to care about manicures since they aren't promised to last even a day.
Anyway, I've been sharing pics here and there on my personal facebook page, but today I feel like sharing with everyone. :)
Here are some designs I've tried out so far:
Actually this is what started it all. A few months ago my fiance treated me to a mani-pedi. It was the first time in my life I ever had acrylic tips or a french manicure. I felt so pret-tay :D
BUT when I took the acrylics off my nails were all scratched up from the buffering and what not D:
I missed my smooth natural nails. So I decided to paint my nails and keep them covered until the scratched up parts grew out and my smooth natural nails came back.
BUT I got bored of the one colour thing really fast and wanted to try something new! So I checked out YouTube...
I stumbled across cutepolish and thought her nail designs were sooo adorable! And they seemed completely doable for a like me. So I tried out some french mani stripes and cutepolish's panda tutorial.
But when I saw her Hello Kitty tutorial I resented the pandas. I painted Hello Kitty on my toes (which I won't be sharing because I'm sensitive about my feet XD), but that wasn't enough. I ditched the pandas and tried this look out.
When my sister came to visit I did the rainbow tutorial, adding in some balloons and a sun on my sis' awkward nail (lol).
These were the inspiration for the new layout.
And when my friend Mio came to visit me I tried out cutepolish's Starry Night tutorial and bubzbeauty's Starry Night tutorial. Mio's so lucky because she has those thin, pretty, long nails that look really nice with styles like bubzbeauty. I was jealous while I was doing her nails D:< lol
To celebrate the 4th of July I did stars and stripes (featuring Hello Kitty). This was the first time I ventured out on my own :). The design didn't last long though because I kept messing up and painting over so the polish was kind of thick. D: I had to take it off soon after. I mean...I would've taken it off soon anyway since I had waited UNTIL the 4th to do an Independence day design.
I tried out my own version of Naritaz's Black and Teal design, but got quickly bored of that because it was SO dark and not very summery at all. I also try to avoid too much black when I can because it affects my mood so easily.
That's when I came up with my very own design using what I had learned and seen on various YouTube videos (at least I don't recall using any one specific video...the tiger was definitely my creation though I'm sure stripes have been done before). This is still my very favorite <3. I designed the tiger all on my own and the stripes came out a lot better than I thought they would so I was really pleased. I tried to keep these nails for as long as possible.
After the tiger I went back to the rainbow design on my own nails and added some birds and glitter :P
Keep in mind these pics were taken right after I finished so my finger weren't always cleaned up after. They looked a lot neater after I cleaned the edges.
After that I tried out a little flower garden. Every nail had a different flower. :)
And for my last design I needed something cute, sweet, elegant, yet full of my personality for a wedding I was attending. So I came up with this.
And after all that the last of the scratched up nails were finally growing out, but they were so brittle from the buffering that they kept breaking DX. So, I haven't painted my nails at all.
But it seems that the damage is pretty much gone so I'm gonna give it another shot and see what I come up with :)
I just don't know what to dooooo....
Anyway, I've been sharing pics here and there on my personal facebook page, but today I feel like sharing with everyone. :)
Here are some designs I've tried out so far:
BUT when I took the acrylics off my nails were all scratched up from the buffering and what not D:
I missed my smooth natural nails. So I decided to paint my nails and keep them covered until the scratched up parts grew out and my smooth natural nails came back.
BUT I got bored of the one colour thing really fast and wanted to try something new! So I checked out YouTube...
But when I saw her Hello Kitty tutorial I resented the pandas. I painted Hello Kitty on my toes (which I won't be sharing because I'm sensitive about my feet XD), but that wasn't enough. I ditched the pandas and tried this look out.
These were the inspiration for the new layout.
I tried out my own version of Naritaz's Black and Teal design, but got quickly bored of that because it was SO dark and not very summery at all. I also try to avoid too much black when I can because it affects my mood so easily.
After the tiger I went back to the rainbow design on my own nails and added some birds and glitter :P
Keep in mind these pics were taken right after I finished so my finger weren't always cleaned up after. They looked a lot neater after I cleaned the edges.
And after all that the last of the scratched up nails were finally growing out, but they were so brittle from the buffering that they kept breaking DX. So, I haven't painted my nails at all.
But it seems that the damage is pretty much gone so I'm gonna give it another shot and see what I come up with :)
I just don't know what to dooooo....
!!!UPDATES!!!
I've added an album "Kawaii Stray!" on the Facebook page with all my past and recent crochet/amigurumi work. You should check it out and "like" the page if you have time. <3
Trying to use the Twitter page more productively with actual site updates and what not...not much going on here to talk about though, ALTHOUGH--
I change the "Kawaii Stray!" page on the site to "Shop." I'm being asked to do commissions more and more so I think it's about time I start getting SERIOUS. Realistically speaking, I just cannot open commissions now, since my belly is about to pop in a month and some change. Since this is my first baby, I'm definitely going to need some time to learn how to be mommy. So. JANUARY 2012 I will, at last, "open my doors" and accept commissions. I may even have some work to sell. We'll see. I'm hoping to really start the new year off right! It is, after all, MY YEAR--the year of the dragon! ROAR!
In other news you may start to see Jak around a bit more so you may have to pay attention to the authors of posts. I'll be setting up a page for her on the site as well so she can share her wonderful literature with us. You should all check it out. :)
I believe that's all the updates I have for now...except well...I added a "follow by e-mail" and "subscribe" gadget, as well as a search bar. But those are puny updates. :P
As for updates in my life--the baby is kicking around a lot more. I have to remember to share some video! Stay tuned for that! And I (finally) learned how to knit so I'm working on a blanket for him.
Oh...
And my clothes STILL don't fit. D:
Anyway, that's all! Hope everyone is enjoying their (end of) summer! It's almost time to go back to school. Are you ready? ;P
Thursday, August 11, 2011
I want to throw away my entire wardrobe...
...and start over.
Nothing fits.
Nothing. Fits.
NOTHING! Fits.
In an early post I mentioned that I have no problems with my body I just hate when my clothes don't fit.
Well...I've reached the breaking point.
Nothing fits me except for the five $10 dresses I bought at H&M and two pairs of sweat shorts. And, as nice as they are, I cannot wear just five dresses and two pairs of shorts for the next month and a half.
What pisses me off the most is that the MATERNITY clothes that I bought have not lasted me through my maternity.
I bought three pairs of jeans. The first pair I loved to death at first and now I can't get them past my thighs, wtf. The second pair I only got to wear maybe once or twice but then it got really hot outside so I decided to save them for fall. I haven't checked if these still fit, but since they are skinnier than the first pair, I'm assuming they don't and saving myself the frustration of trying them on. The third pair just fit, but if my ass gets any bigger (which it probably will since that is where all my weight seems to be gravitating to) they are not going to make it to the end.
I also bought a few basic tees. They looked alright when my bump first showed but look super tight and stupid now. Eff them.
I have a few formal tops and two formal dresses but uhm...I'm not going any freaking where so what I waste THAT was.
And then there's my bathing suit...which I wore once...and have not worn again because I'm not allowed to be outside during the peak hours of the day. But if you don't go to the beach during the peak hours of the day then what's the point in going at all DX
*is grouchy today quite obviously*
So here's what I intend to do, right now. Everything that doesn't fit me, I'm throwing in a bag and dumping in the nearest "clothes drop box." And then I'm going to cry because I will feel like I must go naked. And then...I'm going to start wearing my boyfriends clothes from now until the end of my pregnancy. And when I get some cash I will supplement that boyfriend wardrobe with CHEAP non-maternity I-don't-give-a-shit-what-happens-to-this clothes I find at Target or Walmart or the dollar store...I don't care.
*sob*
Nothing fits.
Nothing. Fits.
NOTHING! Fits.
In an early post I mentioned that I have no problems with my body I just hate when my clothes don't fit.
Well...I've reached the breaking point.
Nothing fits me except for the five $10 dresses I bought at H&M and two pairs of sweat shorts. And, as nice as they are, I cannot wear just five dresses and two pairs of shorts for the next month and a half.
What pisses me off the most is that the MATERNITY clothes that I bought have not lasted me through my maternity.
I bought three pairs of jeans. The first pair I loved to death at first and now I can't get them past my thighs, wtf. The second pair I only got to wear maybe once or twice but then it got really hot outside so I decided to save them for fall. I haven't checked if these still fit, but since they are skinnier than the first pair, I'm assuming they don't and saving myself the frustration of trying them on. The third pair just fit, but if my ass gets any bigger (which it probably will since that is where all my weight seems to be gravitating to) they are not going to make it to the end.
I also bought a few basic tees. They looked alright when my bump first showed but look super tight and stupid now. Eff them.
I have a few formal tops and two formal dresses but uhm...I'm not going any freaking where so what I waste THAT was.
And then there's my bathing suit...which I wore once...and have not worn again because I'm not allowed to be outside during the peak hours of the day. But if you don't go to the beach during the peak hours of the day then what's the point in going at all DX
*is grouchy today quite obviously*
So here's what I intend to do, right now. Everything that doesn't fit me, I'm throwing in a bag and dumping in the nearest "clothes drop box." And then I'm going to cry because I will feel like I must go naked. And then...I'm going to start wearing my boyfriends clothes from now until the end of my pregnancy. And when I get some cash I will supplement that boyfriend wardrobe with CHEAP non-maternity I-don't-give-a-shit-what-happens-to-this clothes I find at Target or Walmart or the dollar store...I don't care.
*sob*
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Fruit [Cup] Smoothie!
So, I'm no chef by any means, but being pregnant I've had to really step up my game in the cooking department. I don't like to spend a lot of time in the kitchen so I thought I'd share some of the quick and yummy treats I've come up with. Most are really basic things that you can feel free to roll your eyes at because of the simplicity--but at the same time they might be things you've never thought of before :) (so there...haha)
Anyway! Today I'd like to share how I make my smoothies...which I love but T hates (I think I'll share his take on fruit smoothies too...because they are pretty yummy...even though they are more milkshakes)
FRUIT [CUP] SMOOTHIES
Prep time:
If you actually use fruit cups this should take you no more than 5 minutes (if even that long). If you're using fresh fruit it may take longer because you have to chop it up.
Ingredients:
- One or more fruit cups of your choice (the ones with no sugar added and/or where the fruit is in its own juice is best)
- Alternative to fruit cups
- Chopped Fruit
- Apple Juice
- Honey (or Agave Nectar)
- Plain Yogurt (low fat or fat free is best)
- Ice cubes
- Wheat Germ (optional)
Tools:
- Blender (I use THE MAGIC BULLET lol)
Directions:
1. Dump fruit cup in blender or put in chopped fruit with some apple juice in blender. Don't be afraid to experiment with different fruits you think might taste good together and maybe even some vegetables too.
2. Add honey (or agave nectar), ice cubes, wheat germ, and a couple of spoonfuls of plain yogurt.
3. Blend well!
4. Enjoy :)
I didn't add portions because it really depends on your taste. If you want the taste of the fruit to really stand out use more fruit and less yogurt. If you want it a bit tangier add more yogurt. If you want it really sweet add more honey. If you want it thicker don't add the fruit cup juices or apple juice and use less yogurt.
Benefits:
- Honey: Using honey to sweeten your drinks is a lot better for you than using sugar. Honey is a natural sweetener that boosts energy and because of it's antioxidant and anti-bacterial properties it helps build up your immune system. It is also quite delicious P:
- Agave Nectar: If you choose agave nectar over honey then you're really looking out for yourself. Agave nectar is less sugary than honey but shares all of the same benefits honey does. It is also not quite as sticky, doesn't have as strong a taste, and is safe for babies.
- Fruit: Different fruits have different benefits but in general it is important to infuse your day with fruit. Fruits are natural energy boosters full of essential vitamins and they help you to stay hydrated. It's better to eat (or in this case, blend) fruit than it is to drink fruit juice because you get all the benefits of the fruit without added sugars, calories, and chemicals your body could do without. If you're not big on eating fruit smoothies and fruit shakes are a great way to get your daily serving.
- Vegetables: throwing in some vegetables into your smoothie is a great way to get some of your daily veggies in without even really realizing you're eating vegetables. Carrots, celery, edamame, and peeled cucumber are a few yummy choices you could add to smoothie without sacrificing flavor.
- Plain Yogurt: People should really eat more yogurt, in my opinion. Especially women. There are so many wonderful benefits to eating yogurt! First yogurt possesses a lot good bacteria that help keep your body healthy as well as the milk benefits of calcium and vitamin D. Yogurt helps keep your bones healthy, may reduce the risk of high blood pressure, and keeps your tummy happy and healthy. Even if you're lactose intolerant you can still have yogurt. For women, yogurt is a natural defense against vaginal infections (tmi I know, but it's true!)
- Wheat Germ: if you choose to use this then good for you. Wheat germ is a great source of vitamins and minerals that are good for your body including (but not limited to) calcium, fiber, iron, protein, potassium, and omega-3 fatty acids. Woooo go wheat germ.
Anyway! Today I'd like to share how I make my smoothies...which I love but T hates (I think I'll share his take on fruit smoothies too...because they are pretty yummy...even though they are more milkshakes)
FRUIT [CUP] SMOOTHIES
Prep time:
If you actually use fruit cups this should take you no more than 5 minutes (if even that long). If you're using fresh fruit it may take longer because you have to chop it up.
Ingredients:
- One or more fruit cups of your choice (the ones with no sugar added and/or where the fruit is in its own juice is best)
- Alternative to fruit cups
- Chopped Fruit
- Apple Juice
- Honey (or Agave Nectar)
- Plain Yogurt (low fat or fat free is best)
- Ice cubes
- Wheat Germ (optional)
Tools:
- Blender (I use THE MAGIC BULLET lol)
Directions:
1. Dump fruit cup in blender or put in chopped fruit with some apple juice in blender. Don't be afraid to experiment with different fruits you think might taste good together and maybe even some vegetables too.
2. Add honey (or agave nectar), ice cubes, wheat germ, and a couple of spoonfuls of plain yogurt.
3. Blend well!
4. Enjoy :)
I didn't add portions because it really depends on your taste. If you want the taste of the fruit to really stand out use more fruit and less yogurt. If you want it a bit tangier add more yogurt. If you want it really sweet add more honey. If you want it thicker don't add the fruit cup juices or apple juice and use less yogurt.
Benefits:
- Honey: Using honey to sweeten your drinks is a lot better for you than using sugar. Honey is a natural sweetener that boosts energy and because of it's antioxidant and anti-bacterial properties it helps build up your immune system. It is also quite delicious P:
- Agave Nectar: If you choose agave nectar over honey then you're really looking out for yourself. Agave nectar is less sugary than honey but shares all of the same benefits honey does. It is also not quite as sticky, doesn't have as strong a taste, and is safe for babies.
- Fruit: Different fruits have different benefits but in general it is important to infuse your day with fruit. Fruits are natural energy boosters full of essential vitamins and they help you to stay hydrated. It's better to eat (or in this case, blend) fruit than it is to drink fruit juice because you get all the benefits of the fruit without added sugars, calories, and chemicals your body could do without. If you're not big on eating fruit smoothies and fruit shakes are a great way to get your daily serving.
- Vegetables: throwing in some vegetables into your smoothie is a great way to get some of your daily veggies in without even really realizing you're eating vegetables. Carrots, celery, edamame, and peeled cucumber are a few yummy choices you could add to smoothie without sacrificing flavor.
- Plain Yogurt: People should really eat more yogurt, in my opinion. Especially women. There are so many wonderful benefits to eating yogurt! First yogurt possesses a lot good bacteria that help keep your body healthy as well as the milk benefits of calcium and vitamin D. Yogurt helps keep your bones healthy, may reduce the risk of high blood pressure, and keeps your tummy happy and healthy. Even if you're lactose intolerant you can still have yogurt. For women, yogurt is a natural defense against vaginal infections (tmi I know, but it's true!)
- Wheat Germ: if you choose to use this then good for you. Wheat germ is a great source of vitamins and minerals that are good for your body including (but not limited to) calcium, fiber, iron, protein, potassium, and omega-3 fatty acids. Woooo go wheat germ.
Rockabye Baby
Just got my crib delivered so I'm psyched...but also a little disappointed because I thought the delivery people were going to put it together. *Pout*
But anyway...I had a weird but kind of cool dream about the baby last night. I was going for a checkup and everything was looking good--but my stomach looked kind of strange to me. Then I saw the baby's hand pushing--like a distinct hand! I thought that was cool until he pressed his face against my belly too and I could make out his features--he looked like his Daddy :). I pet his hand with my finger and he turned back into his little egg.
I can't wait to see him and hold him and play with him. But I'm getting really anxious too. He's just so safe in his little egg, I'm scared for him to be in the outside world. I understand now, what makes parents so protective--especially mothers. In my womb I know exactly where my baby is at all times. I know that he is safe. I know that he is well fed and cared for. I know when he's sleeping. I know when he's awake. I can protect him. He's a part of me.
In 7 weeks he won't be anymore. Of course I will still care for him, feed him, nurture him, love him, but we are no longer one. He'll be his own person, with his own body. I won't always be able to protect him. I won't always know where he is. I won't always be able to make sure he's eating well.
I feel like I've finally gotten used to my little body roommate and now he's moving out.
I mean, it's hard to feel too much loss when I think of all that I'm about to gain...but still...I know how scary and sometimes awful the world can be. I know life is not going to be easy for our family. And it scares me to think that my baby will get hurt by the world and that there is little I can do to stop that from happening.
I feel anxious because I feel like I'm not ready yet to take on this responsibility.
Terrance tells me it's too late to think about that. The time to be ready is now.
But he also tells me this; there is so much love in our hearts and throughout the pregnancy so many people have shared their love with us as well. We are so blessed and so lucky to have so much support in our lives. Even though I'm afraid, I still know that we can and will make it through--no matter how hard things are--because of this love that surrounds us. I just hope it's enough to keep my baby safe and happy and help him grow into a good strong man.
But....
I still have 7 weeks to worry about all that.
For now I will enjoy watching my belly move and feeling for hiccups and dreaming of what my little co-habitant looks like. I have the rest of my life to spend time with him once he's born, but being connected like this is only once in a lifetime.
But anyway...I had a weird but kind of cool dream about the baby last night. I was going for a checkup and everything was looking good--but my stomach looked kind of strange to me. Then I saw the baby's hand pushing--like a distinct hand! I thought that was cool until he pressed his face against my belly too and I could make out his features--he looked like his Daddy :). I pet his hand with my finger and he turned back into his little egg.
I can't wait to see him and hold him and play with him. But I'm getting really anxious too. He's just so safe in his little egg, I'm scared for him to be in the outside world. I understand now, what makes parents so protective--especially mothers. In my womb I know exactly where my baby is at all times. I know that he is safe. I know that he is well fed and cared for. I know when he's sleeping. I know when he's awake. I can protect him. He's a part of me.
In 7 weeks he won't be anymore. Of course I will still care for him, feed him, nurture him, love him, but we are no longer one. He'll be his own person, with his own body. I won't always be able to protect him. I won't always know where he is. I won't always be able to make sure he's eating well.
I feel like I've finally gotten used to my little body roommate and now he's moving out.
I mean, it's hard to feel too much loss when I think of all that I'm about to gain...but still...I know how scary and sometimes awful the world can be. I know life is not going to be easy for our family. And it scares me to think that my baby will get hurt by the world and that there is little I can do to stop that from happening.
I feel anxious because I feel like I'm not ready yet to take on this responsibility.
Terrance tells me it's too late to think about that. The time to be ready is now.
But he also tells me this; there is so much love in our hearts and throughout the pregnancy so many people have shared their love with us as well. We are so blessed and so lucky to have so much support in our lives. Even though I'm afraid, I still know that we can and will make it through--no matter how hard things are--because of this love that surrounds us. I just hope it's enough to keep my baby safe and happy and help him grow into a good strong man.
But....
I still have 7 weeks to worry about all that.
For now I will enjoy watching my belly move and feeling for hiccups and dreaming of what my little co-habitant looks like. I have the rest of my life to spend time with him once he's born, but being connected like this is only once in a lifetime.
Friday, August 5, 2011
New Body or New Wardrobe?
Thanks to my pregnancy my body has changed a lot this year. Because of that I've had to focus more attention to my clothing; what works with my body, what doesn't, what cuts and looks are flattering, what looks should I avoid like the plague. Funny that my interest in fashion would a peak at a time when it would be a waste to spend a lot of time and money on my wardrobe (I'll have to retire it all soon anyway! No sense getting attached!) But--I really have been thinking a lot about body image and clothing, not just for pregnant women, but all women (sorry guys, your fashion is rarely on my mind).
I guess my interest in this topic started when I started reading maternity material. A lot of the articles and literature I would read said it was normal for women to feel self conscious about their bodies, hate how big they were getting, feel like their bodies were ruined. I thought this was weird because I didn't think those things at all. Watching my belly expand has been one of my favorite things about pregnancy. And I actually like the weight I've gained; my cheeks are fuller, my thighs thicker, and my butt--que sexy! Haha! I am a little peeved about how big my breasts have gotten because all that I can wear comfortably is maternity sports bras (though they are the most comfortable bras I've ever had. So wonderful I think I'm just going to wear sports bras from now on haha). I also am not too thrilled by the extra arm fat I've gained, but not necessarily because of how it looks. I can't really see it so I don't care all that much about it. I just don't like how it feels jiggling when I wash the dishes. It's weird.
Anyway, my point is, I'm just fine with how my body has changed--but there IS one thing that has made me self conscious.
My clothes.
They don't fit.
And now that I'm 32 weeks even my maternity clothes are starting to feel a little snug (I bought this pair of maternity jeans that fit perfectly when my belly first started showing, but now I can't even get them over my thighs--eff you maternity jeans! What good are you!).
Now when I go out I must waste about an hour sulking in my room because none of my favorite outfits fit right and whatever I'm stuck settling on is never my top pick for the night.
However, I never blame my body for not looking right in my clothes, I blame my clothes for not fitting right! This, I realize, is a way of thinking not all people have.
Though not as extreme, this self blaming is not uncommon. I've heard many women (and even more men) degrade their bodies for the sake of their clothes.
Sure their is some media blame to go around. Everyone wants to look like a celebrity and no one ever really does. But let's look at that realistically. Celebs not only have make-up artists, wardrobe personnel, personal trainers, and money to blow on diet pills, plastic surgery, and all that other nonsense--but they also have perfect lighting on set and stage, airbrushing, and digital technology which corrects all their "flaws" before you ever see them on screen or in magazines. You can't ever look like them, because THEY don't even look like that!
Then of course we can blame the fashion industry for putting out clothes that are meant for one specific body type. Skinny jeans = not meant for everyone. Short shorts are not such a good idea for all either. Those baggy midriff shirts that are out now, yeah...not a good look on everyone either (though I have to say that the longer ones tend to be pretty flattering on most body types).
You can blame just about anyone, but honestly that's not going to make you feel better about who you are and what you look like.
The first step about feeling good about your body is to be honest with yourself. Some cuts and trends just won't work with your body type and--hey! That is OKAY!!! Don't freak out over it! I for one love Asian street fashion, for example, but the looks tend to favor leaner less curvy bodies (especially up to) so many of the looks really don't work well for me. Yeah, it sucks when you really like a certain look and it doesn't look right on you, but it sucks even more to buy clothes that make you feel bad.
The most popular trends are not going to always be the ones that look the best on you. Brush up on the differences between styles in shirts, jeans, dresses, and everything else. Learn about what looks best on what body type. You may find that a style you never even considered looks like it was made just for you when you put it on. For example, right around the time I got pregnant I discovered the high waisted pants and skirts were very flattering on my figure because I had a small waist, but was heavy on top and in my butt and hips. Before I tried the look out I laughed at anything with a high waist. I thought it was ridiculous. After I tried the look, wearing anything low at the waist just seemed blah to me. Be open minded!
Don't blame yourself for something not looking good on you. It is NOT your body's fault. I mean, do people have any idea how hard their bodies work for them? Your body works for you 24/7; turning food into energy, allowing you to enjoy five senses, getting you from place to place, uhm...keeping you ALIVE. I think the body deserves just a little more respect than it gets--and clothes that do it justice! Try a different size, a different style, a different cut. Try to figure out what it is that isn't working and avoid picking out other things that have that same problem.
If you love something and you love how you look in it then don't worry about what other people have to say about it. The point of me writing all this is not to get on people for dressing a certain way. If you feel confident in your clothing then do you. I'm only saying this for those who aren't happy when they look in the mirror.
Remember, a self conscious person blames their body for their clothes not looking right--but a confident person blames their clothes for not fitting! Where do you fit in?
Do you look good in your clothes or do your clothes look good on you?
I guess my interest in this topic started when I started reading maternity material. A lot of the articles and literature I would read said it was normal for women to feel self conscious about their bodies, hate how big they were getting, feel like their bodies were ruined. I thought this was weird because I didn't think those things at all. Watching my belly expand has been one of my favorite things about pregnancy. And I actually like the weight I've gained; my cheeks are fuller, my thighs thicker, and my butt--que sexy! Haha! I am a little peeved about how big my breasts have gotten because all that I can wear comfortably is maternity sports bras (though they are the most comfortable bras I've ever had. So wonderful I think I'm just going to wear sports bras from now on haha). I also am not too thrilled by the extra arm fat I've gained, but not necessarily because of how it looks. I can't really see it so I don't care all that much about it. I just don't like how it feels jiggling when I wash the dishes. It's weird.
Anyway, my point is, I'm just fine with how my body has changed--but there IS one thing that has made me self conscious.
My clothes.
They don't fit.
And now that I'm 32 weeks even my maternity clothes are starting to feel a little snug (I bought this pair of maternity jeans that fit perfectly when my belly first started showing, but now I can't even get them over my thighs--eff you maternity jeans! What good are you!).
Now when I go out I must waste about an hour sulking in my room because none of my favorite outfits fit right and whatever I'm stuck settling on is never my top pick for the night.
However, I never blame my body for not looking right in my clothes, I blame my clothes for not fitting right! This, I realize, is a way of thinking not all people have.
Though not as extreme, this self blaming is not uncommon. I've heard many women (and even more men) degrade their bodies for the sake of their clothes.
Sure their is some media blame to go around. Everyone wants to look like a celebrity and no one ever really does. But let's look at that realistically. Celebs not only have make-up artists, wardrobe personnel, personal trainers, and money to blow on diet pills, plastic surgery, and all that other nonsense--but they also have perfect lighting on set and stage, airbrushing, and digital technology which corrects all their "flaws" before you ever see them on screen or in magazines. You can't ever look like them, because THEY don't even look like that!
Then of course we can blame the fashion industry for putting out clothes that are meant for one specific body type. Skinny jeans = not meant for everyone. Short shorts are not such a good idea for all either. Those baggy midriff shirts that are out now, yeah...not a good look on everyone either (though I have to say that the longer ones tend to be pretty flattering on most body types).
You can blame just about anyone, but honestly that's not going to make you feel better about who you are and what you look like.
The first step about feeling good about your body is to be honest with yourself. Some cuts and trends just won't work with your body type and--hey! That is OKAY!!! Don't freak out over it! I for one love Asian street fashion, for example, but the looks tend to favor leaner less curvy bodies (especially up to) so many of the looks really don't work well for me. Yeah, it sucks when you really like a certain look and it doesn't look right on you, but it sucks even more to buy clothes that make you feel bad.
The most popular trends are not going to always be the ones that look the best on you. Brush up on the differences between styles in shirts, jeans, dresses, and everything else. Learn about what looks best on what body type. You may find that a style you never even considered looks like it was made just for you when you put it on. For example, right around the time I got pregnant I discovered the high waisted pants and skirts were very flattering on my figure because I had a small waist, but was heavy on top and in my butt and hips. Before I tried the look out I laughed at anything with a high waist. I thought it was ridiculous. After I tried the look, wearing anything low at the waist just seemed blah to me. Be open minded!
Don't blame yourself for something not looking good on you. It is NOT your body's fault. I mean, do people have any idea how hard their bodies work for them? Your body works for you 24/7; turning food into energy, allowing you to enjoy five senses, getting you from place to place, uhm...keeping you ALIVE. I think the body deserves just a little more respect than it gets--and clothes that do it justice! Try a different size, a different style, a different cut. Try to figure out what it is that isn't working and avoid picking out other things that have that same problem.
If you love something and you love how you look in it then don't worry about what other people have to say about it. The point of me writing all this is not to get on people for dressing a certain way. If you feel confident in your clothing then do you. I'm only saying this for those who aren't happy when they look in the mirror.
Remember, a self conscious person blames their body for their clothes not looking right--but a confident person blames their clothes for not fitting! Where do you fit in?
Do you look good in your clothes or do your clothes look good on you?
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Tips on Pet Adoption
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| Biscuit & Afro Tiger |
I just recently adopted a sweet old dog named Biscuit and I absolutely adore her. Mostly everyone in my family adopts their pets and just about every pet I had growing up was rescued or from a shelter. So, I found it kind of odd when I moved that so many people were getting puppies or kittens or were just against adopting animals all together. Against pet adoption? I just don't get it. The most popular argument I've heard against pet adoption is; since you don't know the history of the pet you're adopting, you don't know what will set them off or if they are really safe to have in your house. Which, in my opinion, is childish.
But I'll get to that later.
First I would like to start off with....
Why Adopting Pets is Awesome
- Adopting a shelter dog or cat is much cheaper than buying a puppy or a kitten.
- Depending on where you adopt your new pet will already be set with up-to-date vaccinations, be spayed or neutered, and will even get a microchip implant--so if they are ever lost you can find them again :)
- Animals are like people; the older they get the more their personalities become. When you go to a shelter you can observe all the animals different personality types and have a better idea of what they will be like when you take them home. You can really find a furry companion that is the perfect match for you :)
- Not all animals that end up in shelters were strays or abused or "bad." Many animals that end up there are there because they were abandoned, had to be put up because their former family was moving, their owner died or could no longer take care of them, or they were lost. Because of this you may find a pet that is already completely house trained, well mannered, and may even know some tricks. Training pets is not easy! It's hard work and very time consuming. So, getting a pet that already knows the drill could feel like a blessing. I know I was super happy and relieved when I learned that Biscuit was very well house trained. I was prepared to spend the extra time crate-training her, but now I don't have to. :)
- Shelter pets usually come with a trial period. If things aren't working out within the first week you can bring the pet back and get completely refunded, no hassle.
- When you adopt from the ASPCA (I'm not sure if this applies to all shelters, but definitely them) you get a tax break for that year because your adoption fee is considered a donation.
- I promise, when you see your new pet relaxing on your rug or sofa or nestled in your lap you are going to think about how they looked in their kennel at the shelter and you're going to feel like you really did something wonderful and important by giving them a home. Go on and gloat. Feel proud of yourself. You absolutely deserve it. Other people will think you're awesome too.
These are just a few reasons I can think of. I'm sure there's plenty more. But now I want to get to the point of this post.
Tips on Adopting the Perfect Pet for You
- Plan. Plan. Plan. Don't just run off to a shelter and pick a cute dog or cat out and expect everything is going to turn out for the best. Do your research. Find out what your community's pet policies are. Find out what your building's pet policies if you rent. Talk to your landlord (you're going to have to be on good terms with them). Find out which shelters are in your community (check out petfinder.com). Make sure you have all the necessary information for adoption applications ready before you go there. The more you are prepared the smoother the adoption process will be. I planned out my entire visit to my local SPCA and was able to take Biscuit home the same day.
- Ask yourself if you can really afford a pet. If you've never had a pet before you may not realize how much of a responsibility it is. Pets are like children that never move out and never get jobs. Once you adopt your pet you accept the responsibility of feeding them, caring for them, and giving them shelter. This includes hospital visits, special diet food, and toys to keep them happy. Depending on the pet you get this may also include obedience and home training. All of this can seem really costly, especially if you weren't expecting it.
- Ask yourself do you have the time and patience to train a new pet. You may get lucky, like me, and find a pet that's already house broken, or you may not. Even if the pet you adopted is trained it may take them time to adjust to their new home and even then there might be a few accidents. Are you ready to clean up after them? Can you handle the responsibility of cleaning the cat litter and taking the dog out? Do not just assume that everything is going to go smooth and easy.
- Find out how other people you live with feel about having a pet and have real conversations with them about it. Don't just assume that they have thought through everything like you. This was my mistake. I understood the responsibility and expense that came with having a dog, but my fiance did not. I didn't realize how unprepared he was to have a pet until after we adopted her. I had just assumed that he knew everything I did about pets because he was happy to say "yes" to getting a dog. My punishment for assuming is to now listen to him complain about every new responsibility he was unprepared for; "Why does she cost so much?!""We have to put her on a special diet?!""Now we have to clean up all this dog hair!""What do you mean she has to take medicine?!""We have to plan our trips according to the dog?!""Why can't she just stay outside?!""You have to get the GROOMED?!" Yeah. It's about as fun as it sounds. Go through all possible scenarios with whoever you're living with and make sure everyone is on the same page, because if you know the drill and they don't you won't be able to say anything because their closing argument will always be, "Well you wanted it!"
- Now for fun stuff! Before you go off to the shelter try and think of what the perfect pet would be for you. Do you want a dog? Do you want a cat? You can think about size and whether or not you are willing and able to have a pet with special needs, but other than that don't think too much about looks. Shelter pets are unique in that many times you'll find a dog or cat or other that looks like something you couldn't have dreamed up. So there really is no point in trying to focus on a specific look for your pet. It's more important to think of personality and purpose. Do you want a buddy dog or a guard dog? Do you want a mouser cat or a lazy lap cat? Needy or independent? Bed warmer or foot stool? If you're having trouble think of WHY you want this pet. As an example I will use my thought process for picking out my dog.
Cat or Dog or Other? - I am more of a cat person, but considering my situation I decided a dog would be the best choice. Many thought this was weird (including the workers at the SPCA) but I really did think it through. First of all, I was advised by my doctor not to get a cat because of the [small] risks that are associated with felines and pregnant women. Second, cats NEED to climb on things. It's just unrealistic to expect a cat to stay on the floor. This doesn't bother me but it would drive my fiance ballistic. Third, I was concerned about the cat smothering my baby. And finally I really needed a reason to get out of the house. Yeah, walking your cat is an option--but when everyone on the block has a pitbull--it probably isn't the best idea.
Size - Ideally I wanted a lap dog, but I was willing to go bigger. But I did not want to go any bigger than above my knee because I was considered about the dog jumping up and hitting my stomach or being too big for me to take control. I was also worried about a big dog smothering my baby.
Purpose - I wanted a dog to keep me company while my fiance was at work and to give me a reason to get up and out of the house. So I was really looking for a laidback companion dog that enjoyed walking but not necessarily vigorous play.
Demeanor - With the baby on the way I absolutely needed a dog that was good around children; one that wouldn't bite or steal toys or smother the baby or be jealous. I didn't have enough time to train them to be this way so I needed a dog that already knew the drill. For this reason I knew from the start I wanted an older dog. Older dogs tend to be more relaxed and unperturbed. Younger dogs tend to be more hyper and needy.
Personality - I need a sweet, docile, calm dog. I don't like dogs that bark a lot, especially when it's without reason. I needed a dog that liked attention but could deal with being on their own too. Gentle, friendly, social, happy, these are all traits I looked for.
- Now that you have an idea of what you're looking for, you're all planned and prepared, and the people you live with are ready too, you can finally go and adopt your pet! When you get to the shelter tell whoever is helping you exactly what you're looking for, what you definitely don't want, and what your household is like. If you go to one of the bigger ASPCAs you may even be asked to fill out a survey to get your color coded personality to find your perfect match. If you go to a smaller shelter the people who work there should have a good idea of what pets will best suit what you need and want. Take your time and ask lots of questions about each pet candidate. Try not to fall for the "love at first sight" routine. Get to know all the pets that the staff suggest. Ask to see their files. Ask to see the other animals too and ask questions about them, maybe you'll find one that they hadn't thought of. Biscuit was my perfect match but I wouldn't have seen her if I hadn't asked to see all the other dogs too.
- Don't fall for looks alone. A cute dog or cat is great but may not be the best match for you. This is why figuring out the kind of dog you want BEFORE you go to the shelter is so important. If you have no idea what you're looking for you'll go for anything.
- Don't settle. Smaller shelters may not have what you're looking for, but don't feel obligated to just pick a pet. Come back another time or try another shelter. Somewhere out there is the perfect pet for you. Don't feel bad about leaving empty handed--you'll feel even worse if you have to bring back or are stuck with a pet that isn't right for you.
Hope these tips help you find your perfect Stray friend!
Now for the nonbelievers...
Why Adopting a Pet is NOT a Bad Idea
- Before animals are put up for adoption they are thoroughly tested, not only for health issues, but social issues. Shelter staff evaluate each animal's personality, demeanor, tolerance, and social quirks. This is how they learn if an animal is trained, good with people, good with children, good with other dogs, good with cats, etc. etc.
- The chances of you adopting a pet that has some sort of "kill" word embedded in their psyche that will make them go berserk if said is highly unlikely. Many shelter dogs have a hard time sitting on command, let alone attacking and killing somebody.
- I've heard many people say they want puppies and kittens so they can "start fresh" with animals that will get to know them. Okay, so with a shelter pet you don't get to watch your puppy or your kitten grow into an adult (unless you get a shelter puppy or kitten of course)--but that doesn't mean the animal you adopt won't know and love you. I've had Biscuit for about a month now and every time T and I come home she does an elated happy tail dance and runs between the two of us to get belly rubs and neck scratches. She must sleep next to our bed at night or by our feet when we are sitting on the couch. Already she knows and loves us. Same is true for my mom's two adopted dogs. They must be near her always and must sleep in bed with her every night. Animals adjust. Just because a shelter pet had a past with someone else doesn't mean they can't have a future with you.
- Just because a pet is older does not mean it won't live long. If you take good care of your new pet and there are no serious health concerns you may be surprised by how long they will live.
These are all the arguments against adopting that I can think of.
I hope you all enjoyed this and found it helpful if you're thinking about getting a pet!
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